MEXIRICAN DREAMS

I made this huge leap into the unknown and now I miss the familiar. Why did I do it? I feel like I'm going to fail because I don't have the energy to be all about succeeding this time. I used to be but I would like to enjoy my life too. I noticed that work needs to be balanced for me. I need to have a support system that I can call and they call back. I hate voicemail tag. I miss my old life. Is it bad to show the white flag so early even though you know they need someone who is more committed than you are?

Yes it is okay to doubt your decisions.
You find happiness in walking.
You are missing your boyfriend
you doubt your abilities.
you fake self-confidence.
you want to go back home. please.

So I survived the Oklahoma City Tournament. Oh man was it weird being there when my old team was there too. Same drama, same tennis. Hilarious! I have been recruiting really hard and I hope to meet my expectations.

I'm disappointed that Kansas won. I wanted Memphis.

Only 4 more days until I see my boyfriend and get to do more recruiting.

I love to eat an avocado with a knife;
I think a sandwich is a perfect meal;
I really don't enjoy being friends with exes;
I don't understand how my other half can have lunch with theirs;
I think a perfect day is tennis, lunch, nap, movie, chinese;
I miss philly and the summer walking;
I love to shop at the gap;
I love the little burgers at the McDonald's;
I pick my nose in the bathroom;
I fear making life choices;
I feel incredibly lonely in California;
I am a cookie monster;
I love to read blogs;
I love early nights and early mornings;
I love my boyfriend's cat even though I don't love the poop box;
I fear beautiful people;
I don't trust people who always smile;
that I cry all the time. very emotional;
that I sometimes sleep in my clothes even if I sweat in them;
I love diet coke, a meal is not a meal without Diet Coke;
that I am incredibly insecure when it comes to boyfriend and exes;
I think pesto with pine nuts is tasty and warm for the body;
I love hot dogs for all meals;
I don't really crave mexican food or puertorican food;
I crave time alone after a long day;
A nap is always in order in my book;
I sleep bundled up like a burrito-always have;
I snore and talk in my sleep;
I drool;
I fart in my car;
I enjoy shopping alone;
I don't know how to put make up on;
dressing up is cruelty to me;
salad is an awesome meal;
thai is second;
I miss some old friends.

I got my dream job. Head coach woo hoo!

This morning after waking up and having a fit of coughing I know feel better to do homework. I have 2 synopsis due, 1 rewrite and a power point. After this Wednesday I will only 2 more assignments. I am excited to be done with school and will never return again.

On the poor me note, I am worried about my ear drum. I was coughing violently and maybe pierced my ear drum. Is that possible?

On a Christmas note, I can't wait to go home. I am watching You Got Mail. New York in the Christmas time is my favorite. So is traveling during the holidays.

I will be traveling to Florida and Texas. Woo hoo! I love the weather in both states.

I feel better and I see the end of the tunnel. I cannot wait to get back to work and being active. Oh and I can't wait to find a new job.

Happy Thanksgiving~

I'm at home sick and not able to stand for longer than 1 hour so I cannot go to any Thanksgiving feasts. I am really sad I am missing out. This is the first time I have ever missed out on a holiday.